Having lost whatever hope i have in the human race, i turn to venting. I'm mad as hell.
I'm not going to relay the entire story to you, but long story short: family friend gets beaten and robbed at FMP in the middle of the day with MANY witnesses who do nothing to help despite a very prolonged beating and desperate cries for help.
There are the doers - the people who actively seek to harm others for their own selfish benefits. These people, we all know, are scum.
But I have a bigger beef with the people who just watched. These are everyday, normal "relatively good people." That's crap. These people are just as bad as the evil doers because they're enablers, enabling people to let other people hurt each other. What's worse is that they're hypocrites. Full of crap. I understand that there's this thing in psych about crowd mentalities that inhibits people from acting in emergencies. That's because they "expect" someone else to do something. Even to our core, we're innately and biologically scum.
I'm seething with anger (couldn't you tell?), mostly at these people, but also humanity because I know that we're all like that some way or another. I sit here saying that there's no doubt that I would have been moved into acting. But in reality, who am I to say? It all ends up being hypothetical to me because I wasn't actually there.
Yet, God chose to die. for us. the scum of the universe. Why? It's ludicrous, unreasonable, illogical. I'm bursting inside trying to fathom it.
There's also a second part to this for me to admit something, which indicates that I'm just as bad as the above-listed. There was a guy at Kennedy station yesterday, this greasy-looking middle-aged man who took out a wad of cash out and started counting it. Let me tell you, it was a LARGE wad of cash at least 20-30 crisp twenties. He was doing it slowly, with people all around, almost begging us to envy him or something along those lines. I thought to myself, what a douche. he deserves to be robbed or something.
So there you have it. I'm as big of a scumbag as everyone else. We're all scum. I'm being cynical and hateful and mean and unforgiving. But you need to realize that before Grace truly means the world.
