Have you ever been so obsessed with someone or something that you can't stop thinking about it no matter how hard you tried? The thought of this thing consumes your complete being; you can't focus when you're studying, everything else in the world just seems so 'blah,' you're not joyful anymore, and your life becomes very much a shadow of your former self. It's because you're obsessed. Your desire for this thing is just so intense, it's really quite ungodly. How do you deal? I'm having trouble dealing. I keep telling myself, "Just be patient, just be patient. You'll make it. God will provide in due time. God sees your stuggles" But it continues to infiltrate you, penetrating your thoughts, emotions, and even your dreams. But you're also afraid. What if my desire is finally fulfilled and it doesn't live up to my expectations?
In a week's time, there will be the biggest party in my stomach that the world has ever seen. I bought a roast.
