I've decided to add another new year's resolution to my already long list.

RESOLUTION #16: be more vocal.

I used to be high-strung, easily angered, loud, obnoxious. (i still am to some extent, but much less so now) I've mellowed out. A LOT. As a result, i don't talk unless i have some great burning desire to talk and i don't get excited easily anymore. i no longer laugh a lot. i chuckle periodically because i'm amused with something, but i can't remember the last time that i laughed really hard. i'm too contained. people think i'm disinterested or dispassionate. and that's not really true. i'm just too "mellow". but clearly, mellowness in this context is not a good thing. it's my shield, my armour (like james bond. ha) that protects me from a lot of things. time to take some off. maybe just a few layers for now. but i've gotta start somewhere.